Dearest Lestat, I’ve been having a difficult time lately. I’ve recently attempted suicide, I have some family members engaging in some questionable and dangerous behaviors, I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety (among other mental illnesses), everything feels horrible and heavy. Like being suffocated slowly, like being pressed to death. Do you have any advice or any reasons to encourage me to continue to live?

(ooc; Reminder: if you have already taken something or done something to harm yourself please call 911. If you haven’t done anything and if you’re thinking about suicide, please talk to the suicide hotline 1-800-273-TALK (8255) in the U.S., to find a suicide helpline outside the U.S., visit IASP or Suicide.org. Please read Suicide Help.)

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♛Anon! 

Your message is heartbreaking. I wish I could come to you and convince you in person that you should live! As powerful as I am, I have my limits, and I can’t track you by IP address, I have hackers working on finding you as I write this.

I wrote a response to you already, twice, deleted both times. From what you have shared, and survived, the burdens you bear, I am so sorry you’ve been dealt such a hand in life. I hear you. We hear you. You’re not alone. 

I’m reaching for you, as you reached out to me to share your story, just reach out to me a little further, close the distance between us by taking the step to ask for help. Call the suicide hotline

1-800-273-TALK (8255) in the US, or find it in your area

IASP or Suicide.org. Call the local hospital. Call 911. It’s me on the other end of that line, I’m there, just with a different voice and a different name.

Please do this one small thing, since you already did a big thing by writing to me!

Reasons to live, a very short list, just to begin with:

  • Puppies, kittens, zoos
  • Botanical gardens
  • Museums
  • Art Galleries
  • Films
  • Music
  • Libraries and books
  • Candles
  • Bath soaps
  • Loved ones
  • Art you want to make
  • Poetry and stories you want to write
  • So many other things… (ooc; please add to this list, everyone! Reblog or in the comments)

My childhood nurse used to sing this poem to me, maybe it will help you:

“A rainbow cross the clear blue sky, Do you see it?

In the oven bakes a pie, Do you smell it?

A bluebird cries a happy cry, Do you hear it?

Notice all the goodly things in your life, then you will be happy.”

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