♛I have been doing that, haven’t I? I have a terrible track record with relationships. I have plenty of experience in what NOT to do, that’s for damn sure… 

(Alright, well… there have been some wonderful relationships. I’m in a relationship now with someone who has a high tolerance for pain and almost limitless patience, thank the powers that be, but enough about Louis…)

*cracks knuckles* Well, H, this is, as they say, a goddamn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation.

You’re going to have to put these feelings for him out of your mind and focus on your own life. You can do it. That relationship was grown by both of you, it became part of you, but it’s a severed limb now, what’s left is that eerie phantom feeling where it used to be.

Being in love is intoxicating, there is a whole science behind that apart from the emotional addiction. Being in love is fun, it’s pleasurable. Your physical and emotional attraction to your ex is probably something like what recovering drug addicts feel for the drug they’ve sworn off. Just because he is a drug, does not mean he’s loathsome. Just because you feel drawn to him does not make you weak.

The trick really is not to “think” about it. It’s not constructive to give him your mental energy. Focus on other things. Don’t replace him with another lover just to have that high of being in love again. Love yourself. Please yourself, physically and emotionally. In time, this shadow of attraction to him will fade away. Trust me. 

*kisses,* L.