But, I do think that if there’s a sort of “moral” to Frankenstein, that who did Mary Shelley her­self most iden­ti­fy with? Probably the crea­ture. You know, as Joey said, the “unnamed crea­ture.” Why? Because that’s how peo­ple respond­ed to her. As an intel­lec­tu­al wom­an and as an unwed moth­er, she was called a whore. When peo­ple found out that she wrote Frankenstein they said what kind of wom­an would write such a book? Must be some­thing wrong with her. There’s some­thing per­verse about a wom­an who would write such a book.

So lat­er in her life she says, “I wrote it, but that’s because the idea came to me in a dream.” And we know that isn’t true because we have her note­books. She in fact thought of the idea. She worked on it real­ly hard. She worked on it real­ly hard while young wom­en around her were killing them­selves. And also, inci­den­tal­ly, she was read­ing the his­to­ry of slav­ery. So she’s ded­i­cat­ing her­self to the ideas of social injus­tice and the suf­fer­ing of those who are con­sid­ered mon­strous by their own soci­ety, her­self includ­ed.

So, she sees her­self as a wom­an who’s trying—she wants to pub­lish and be smart in her world, as some­one who’s going evoke feel­ings of mon­st— [To audi­ence (Joey Eschrich?)] You said a feel­ing of mon­stros­i­ty? People will react to her as though she’s a mon­ster, and she’s say­ing, “Don’t do that.”

Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.

Carrie Fisher

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Han & Leia Appreciation Week: Day 3, Part 1

There are so many wonderful things to say about Carrie Fisher, from her sense of humor to her kindness to her advocacy for mental health. But I think of this quote almost constantly. More than even Leia, the idea of “stay afraid but do it anyway” is a part of my daily life.

I’m one of those people who becomes paralyzed with fear. I have severe anxiety and I fight it every day.

I use procrastination as an unhealthy coping behavior. It started when I went to [insert snooty Ivy League here]: I didn’t think I belonged there, I didn’t think I was smart enough or good enough. So I stopped. I was so afraid of failing – or, of not being perfect – that I just didn’t do anything. I didn’t go to class. I didn’t do readings. I’d wait until the last second to turn in assignments. And I’d be terrified the entire time.

I’m in law school now, and I’m feeling those same feelings all over again. I’m literally paralyzed by my own fear. But I tell myself: stay afraid but do it anyway.

Paralyzed in fear is no way to live. Carrie knew this and she told all of us the best way she knew how to stop the cycle; her words help me every day.

Thanks Space Mom ❤️

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