♛What a coincidence, I love my mom, too! There’s no one quite like her, they broke the mold when she was made, as they say.
I haven’t heard from her in a long time. She’s not answering her text messages, probably lost her phone somewhere for the millionth time *sighs* …There is reason to believe I’ll see her for Christmas, though…
♛Plotting… nothing finalized yet.
♛You’re not yet 20 years old? There is plenty of time for you! There is no rush. Appreciate the other flowers blooming in the garden around you, let their happiness be your happiness. See if you can learn from their example.
There is an awful pressure in this modern age that is similar to the pressure of my mortal years, that being single is somehow considered as “a failure” or “missing out.” I can’t agree with this judgment, and I hope you don’t either.
I have been in enough relationships to tell you that they are wonderful, but they are not all rainbows and
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all the time. It’s a part-time job! It takes effort! Being in a relationship is not an end point, it’s the beginning of a shared chapter with someone.
But I won’t lie to you, you might not ever find love. Or it may be right around the corner. Who can tell?
Let go of any feelings of inadequacy for this, if you feel it. Too many people think of life as a series of required chapters or items on a checklist that must be accomplished, and therefore, the failure to achieve them implies a failure in you.
Absolutely not so. “Failure.” “Success.” Let go of society’s narrow definition of these concepts. It’s far worse to settle for having someone in your life who goes through the motions of loving you, but doesn’t. Someone you don’t love. Someone you project your fantasies onto. Someone you want so badly to love you the way you need to be loved. So many people fall into this trap; locked to someone they end up despising sooner or later.
All the loves of my life were found when I pushed past my comfort zone.* One thing is certain, love won’t find you if you close yourself off from the possibility and opportunity. I found Louis in pursuit of keeping my diet strictly evildoer, and there he was, too dignified to do it himself, throwing himself to the wolves in the hopes that they would slay him. Something led me there, among all the other dens of sin I might have gone to that night. Did fate lead me to him? I like to think so.
*Not that I have much of a comfort zone to begin with *shrugs*
You are whole as you are. Look at your triumphs in this life, look how far you’ve come. Look where you want to go, what you want to do. Give yourself some love.
And then love may just find you.
♛He’s certainly been something of a Krampus to certain people in the last few years, so it wouldn’t be a tough role for him to play *cracking up*
♛The Dark Gift has its price, ma petite. Expensive in other ways. It’s one of the most fun gifts to give, I must admit. I feel excited just thinking about doing it again… I don’t think I’ll be giving any Dark Gifts given this month, but hey, we still have some 3 weeks left, you never know…
♛Darling, I’m driving! Had to beg Louis to transcribe this answer. Wouldn’t want me texting and driving, would you? Santa Lestat will answer his messages when he can *winks*
♛I plead the Fifth, mon chéri. (ooc; was that a trainwreck joke?? How dare u! lol, well-played)
(ooc; Reminder: if you have already taken something or done something to harm yourself please call 911. If you haven’t done anything and if you’re thinking about suicide, please talk to the suicide hotline 1-800-273-TALK (8255) in the U.S., to find a suicide helpline outside the U.S., visit IASP or Suicide.org. Please read Suicide Help.)
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♛Anon!
Your message is heartbreaking. I wish I could come to you and convince you in person that you should live! As powerful as I am, I have my limits, and I can’t track you by IP address, I have hackers working on finding you as I write this.
I wrote a response to you already, twice, deleted both times. From what you have shared, and survived, the burdens you bear, I am so sorry you’ve been dealt such a hand in life. I hear you. We hear you. You’re not alone.
I’m reaching for you, as you reached out to me to share your story, just reach out to me a little further, close the distance between us by taking the step to ask for help. Call the suicide hotline
1-800-273-TALK (8255) in the US, or find it in your area
IASP or Suicide.org. Call the local hospital. Call 911. It’s me on the other end of that line, I’m there, just with a different voice and a different name.
Please do this one small thing, since you already did a big thing by writing to me!
Reasons to live, a very short list, just to begin with:
My childhood nurse used to sing this poem to me, maybe it will help you:
“A rainbow cross the clear blue sky, Do you see it?
In the oven bakes a pie, Do you smell it?
A bluebird cries a happy cry, Do you hear it?
Notice all the goodly things in your life, then you will be happy.”
♛Drunk and high people can be SO much fun, though, don’t you think? Visit the moon? And did you mean Pluto? Another galaxy?! Are these challenges? I’ve broken into NASA once before, don’t f$*#ing tell me what to do… *hides Star Trek and Star Wars graphic novels and paraphernalia* Light sabers are real, aren’t they?
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