No, I’m not planning on going anywhere without a big flowery announcement, trust me! I’ve been in this fandom for 20+ years and on tumblr since July 2013, I’m stuck here for the long haul, it seems.
(If I ever mysteriously disappear, I’ll give my online whereabouts to @annabellioncourt and @merciful-death to share with you all.)
Oh my gosh, well… I waited 6 hours, but there was no further message, so I’m just going to answer now.
“I don’t know how to feel about Anne…”
Respectfully, I’m not going to tell you how to feel about Anne Rice. I must regretfully decline.
I know how I feel about her: that she has given us a wonderful gift and that she has committed no actual crime for which she would deserve to be boycotted. We can poke fun at her, at her books, we can critique them, bc she has set herself and her works for public review. We can feel distrustful for her past behavior towards the fandom and distrustful of her handling of her own characters. Those are all within our rights as a critical public.
I always recommend that people read the books and draw their own conclusions about them on their own merits. It’s part of what makes fandom great, that we can agree on some things, disagree on others, and have lively discussions about it all.
What I will tell you is that you don’t have to like Anne Rice to read her stories. To my knowledge, she has not committed ANYREAL LIFE ACTUAL CRIMES. People boycott actual criminals bc we do not want to financially or morally support them. IMO, Anne Rice should NOT be lumped in with REAL LIFE ACTUAL CRIMINALS.
It is not a crime that she waged war on fanfic. It was incredibly painful and it shattered the fandom, and drove us all underground for years ;A; But she was within her legal rights. Keep in mind that fandom was not really socially acceptable or understood like it is today, authors understand now that fanworks are types of fan engagement with canon and each other. She seems to understand that now, or if not, she at least ignores fanfic.
It is not a crime that she waged war on reviewers. Also painful and oppressive at the time, AR used to be very offended by critical or negative reviews of her books, and would sic her People of the Page on reviewers. Again, she now seems to understand that people are within their rights to critique her work and she can ignore them.
What she writes is not an actual crime. She has problematic elements and explores taboo subjects in her writing, refuses any editor’s advice, refuses anyone’s idea of what she should write. That’s her prerogative as a ‘music maker,’ as a ‘dreamer of dreams’ (<– like Willy Wonka!). To argue that any of her writing is a crime is, to me, a form of censorship, and I do not believe in censorship of fiction.
^^^^None of these are Real Life actual crimes. Personally, I may not accept all of her writing as canon, and I may poke fun at it, too, that’s my prerogative as a reader.
The idea that all art should be entirely unproblematic all the time…kills art. Like, I really don’t think we as readers have some all-solemn duty to constantly make sure we’re only having the ~right~ kind of fun.
But that’s just my opinion. You’ll have to draw your own conclusions and decide whether you want to financially/morally support Anne Rice by buying/reading her books, or not.
If you mean yours truly, well… I hate to deny very good girls the very best gifts, but I am also an impulsive bastard who hates scheduling things, being expected at a certain time.
…This is why I need to go on tour again, so I can “visit” with a stadium full of people who love me, and point at them from just off-stage and glare at Louis, “See how much they love me? They’re chanting my name! They’re starving for me! Why can’t you be more like THEM?”
♛I usually like start off my holiday gatherings in a large group social setting, with our mortal social circles mingled with the coven, dancing and live music, then gradually move locations and shed people as the evening wears on, making smaller and smaller circles of interaction, from the impersonal to the more personal, coven-only at some point… I dream of having a heated blood fountain at one of these and Marius keeps shooting me down! He has such a limited idea of fun.
All this until, if I play my cards right and behave myself well, it ends up with just Louis and I alone together in a secluded little spot, or back home, tangled together somewhere with enough time before dawn for a little celebration of our own, if he lets me if we feel like it.
It’s all out of my hands, we’ll see what my ghostwriter does with it all. I’m hoping to snuggle up on the couch with my boyfriend, too, to watch our story play out on the small screen (it’s a large flat screen, but you know, figuratively, the small screen).
I’ll be satisfied as long as someone devilishly handsome is cast in my role, and that someone endearingly dignified, fastidious, and filthy is cast for Louis. And that they kiss! Often!
… Louis refuses to dress as Mrs. Claus, we’ll just see about that.
♠(Louis) Lestat loves being on the Naughty list, it seems that he invents new ways to top that list every year… *sigh*
Why he also wants to play Santa, I assume it feeds his retail addiction, or he thinks it will earn him a place on the Nice list at the last second… At any rate, he cast himself in the role, and he might just fight you if he thinks you’re trying to usurp him, give his red velvet three-piece suit to someone else, even if that someone is me *rolls eyes*
I’m not a Santa, I don’t send gifts. I wouldn’t know what foods to send, we stock up on candy for the neighborhood trick-or-treaters every year… I have to ask a neighbor what her children like in order to know what to buy. What foods do people send these days? Drink elements like liquor, coffee, and tea, those I can understand. Baked goods would be cold on arrival. I’ve seen fruit bouquets. Isn’t food best when served freshly prepared? I wouldn’t know.
As for books, there are libraries, and Lestat is always urging me to borrow books rather than own them, we have so many books as it is, and the more precious ones take special storage and care, so I can’t wholly disagree with him.
Interview me? What’s left to be said that hasn’t been put down on paper already? You can ask me questions here, I will consider answering.
♛I have been doing that, haven’t I? I have a terrible track record with relationships. I have plenty of experience in what NOT to do, that’s for damn sure…
(Alright, well… there have been some wonderful relationships. I’m in a relationship now with someone who has a high tolerance for pain and almost limitless patience, thank the powers that be, but enough about Louis…)
*cracks knuckles* Well, H, this is, as they say, a goddamn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation.
You’re going to have to put these feelings for him out of your mind and focus on your own life. You can do it. That relationship was grown by both of you, it became part of you, but it’s a severed limb now, what’s left is that eerie phantom feeling where it used to be.
Being in love is intoxicating, there is a whole science behind that apart from the emotional addiction. Being in love is fun, it’s pleasurable. Your physical and emotional attraction to your ex is probably something like what recovering drug addicts feel for the drug they’ve sworn off. Just because he is a drug, does not mean he’s loathsome. Just because you feel drawn to him does not make you weak.
The trick really is not to “think” about it. It’s not constructive to give him your mental energy. Focus on other things. Don’t replace him with another lover just to have that high of being in love again. Love yourself. Please yourself, physically and emotionally. In time, this shadow of attraction to him will fade away. Trust me.