devilsfool:

You cannot teach someone ‘how’ to be a vampire, as each experience is entirely unique and different (although I do wonder if Louis would beg to differ on this). 

With Louis, I was young and impatient, eager to assuage my own loneliness with his presence, and thus I blundered terribly with him. I have to say, though… Louis could not understand that he already knew what to look for, what to see. Louis’ gentle spirit and inquisitive nature already made him a prime candidate for vampirism, and his desire to learn and know gave him all the tools he needed to experience the world around him with his new senses. 

I don’t know, frankly. I fail so often that it’s become rather commonplace at this point, and to continuously go back and say, “Ah, I would have,” or “but if only this” seems utterly pointless. 

In short, there is this: Louis knew what to look for, even if he didn’t realise it. 

Perhaps I might have actually been honest with him in how much I loved him. Perhaps that might have changed something.