Awww! You’ve made my day. As for your poor drink-spattered computer… I’ll message you privately (”INCOMING” could be the code word?) before I post responses from now on, lol.
♛I bare my soul to you so thoroughly and so often for so very long and you want to put me on medication *sigh*
[X] My initial reaction is offense, you’re right about that, but I know you meant it in good faith. Perhaps it’s because Armand has suggested it so many times as an insult, and I detest that there’s a connotation that anyone “on pills” or “seeing a shrink” is somehow lesser for doing these things. Who the f&ck decided that wearing glasses to improve one’s vision was acceptable but needing extra chemicals to improve one’s brain functions was somehow an indication of being some kind of, I don’t know, freak of nature?! Oh right, wearing glasses will get you bullied, too *tosses up hands*
Here’s the thing that I maybe failed to convey to you or that some of you chose to misread.
I grew up with neglect and physical abuse on a regular basis. Directly proportional to any time I wanted to strike out and try to find what any child craves – affection, love, support. I had so little of those things. I starved for them. Do you know what it’s like to have to sit at the dinner table and be polite to someone sitting at the head of the table who less than an hour ago beat you to the ground, your face on the cold stone floor, and ridiculed you for crying about it? You’re wearing bruises from it, you have some bandages, you taste your own blood in your mouth from your split lip with each bite of the food that YOU brought home to this person? Trying not to shake or cry. This person who asks you to play chess with him after dinner as if nothing happened?
this is one perfect, powerful, gut wrenching introspection on the character and thank the Gods for Coven Leaders like @i-want-my-iwtv for being here and giving us posts like this one.
Yes indeedy there will be a legit post! Altho I have been feeding u little bits from it already 😉 For now have this:
^Can u guess which one is me? I AM IN THE RED VELVET SHE DID NOT EVEN COMMENT and also the lighting on her is better than on me but whatever whatever it’s all fine.
… Do I say that too much? YOU GUYS MAKE THIS WORTH DOING IT GIVES ME SO MUCH LIFE.
‘Coven Leader,’ well… I just do what I do. I won’t deny that I like titles in the abstract, but wouldn’t a Coven Leader also have authoritative responsibilities? And have to appoint ppl to their Dark Cabinet, and arrange Dark Events on their Dark Calendar? Wait, I do do that, to some extent (@vcsecretgiftssignups are still open till 12/2!)… maybe “coven leader” in all lower case letters fits better, less pressure. I’m more of a ‘coven cheerleader’ bc I am mired in this positivity loop and I love encouraging fanworks.
I want to address smtg regarding my place in the fandom, since we’re on the topic.
Someone* recently told me that as a monolith of the fandom I have an obligation to
acknowledge what’s troubling about canon, breed awareness of who controls the narrative of culture and who that harms. I feel that this kind of analysis is a different kind of fanwork, an engagement done with as much love as in the creation of fanart, fanfic, cosplay, etc. It’s valuable and worth our attention.
One major reason I haven’t made or promoted much of this kind of commentary is that I don’t want to offend AR and get this blog shut down for an opinion that I may not even agree with. In the not-so-distant past, she has been known to react negatively to any review of her works that had even the faintest whiff of criticism. So when I share these potentially provocative posts w/ you I may choose to do so as a link, rather than reblog the thread itself, so that it’s clear that it’s not an opinion born from this blog, and ppl can engage with it separately.
TL;DR: As a Coven Leader, I do believe that this kind of analysis/commentary is equally valuable as all other fanworks.
It’s valuable to offer differing opinions to you alongside my own.These posts will be tagged#Deep Cuts of VC Analysis.
*I used some of this person’s words blended in w/ mine here w/o tagging them bc idk if they want to be tagged, if they do, I’ll quote them properly, but since I agree with them, I feel like I can use their words. They are also not the first who have suggested this to me.
Re: “Coven Leader”: While I recognize that many ppl may want to give me a fandom title out of love and appreciation, even if they’re just being that kind of internet-effusive and not really serious, I’m putting up a lot of resistance bc I’ve seen ppl put on a pedestal here and then knocked down, bullied off the site entirely. Whether that was for good reason(s) or not, w/o knowing the truth we can only see from the outside that it appeared to be based on jealousy of that “internet fame.” That may have been the reason, maybe there were no good reasons. Some ppl just like to watch the world burn. So I don’t need to be singled out and given a title or fame when that’s the reaction it can produce. I wouldn’t want to have to turn off Anons.
I know that there are ppl out there who probably do despise me already bc of internet fame alone, and to them: I’m sorry that you have to see my blog all over the place, I’m sorry if it bothers you, please block me, make your tumblr a happy place for you!
Riiiiight…. I seem to remember that you did that way back when PLROA was announced, yes, NAUGHTY! BAD! *sprays you w/ holy water*
J/K it’s gonna be hilarious AU fanfic… I’m hoping for some Scientology-flavored tidbits.
AR: These are the chronicles of the Vampire Lestat. His two-hundred-plus-year mission: to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilizations, to boldly go where no vampire has gone before.
In NO particular order, NOT exhaustive (will be updated), Includes primarily Vampire Chronicles blogs (some other vampy things may pop up), may be inactive (life happens) but still worth scrolling, does not include rp blogs (different list in the future) though the blog may choose to rp sometimes
(THIS ONE’S FOR ME awwww!) Thanks bunches, Rem! <3<3<3
I actually got this message 3 days ago, but I was neck-deep (hehehe!) in birthday messages for Lestat, so I felt like this could be answered a little later, when the dust his confetti settled.
… Little did I know that the sh*t would hit the fan so spectacularly here in the US… where am I going with this, you ask? Well, in the face of such stress and anxiety and and and… all the emotions one can have in this situation… it’s so good to know my face (figuratively and literally) is loved, fangs ‘n all, and I’m still needed, and by unrelentingly plowing ahead, encouraging others to make – and making my own – fanworks, it can help us all get through this.
It isn’t just escape into a fantasy world. Fandom is letting the fantasy world supplement us, bolster us, give us hope. Fandom is drawing our friends and loved ones as close as we can, even separated by massive distance, we can at least communicate with and support eachother.
Homework assignment to everyone out there: Reach out and send a lovely message like this to someone today ❤
By the way, totally unrelated: how’s everyone’s immigration policies? Asking for a friend…
You are so very welcome! I’m doing it to try to nudge you into making more, is my little plot working?
No pressure, but I do love your style, and ppl should be made aware of it, bc the way you draw/paint is unique and passionate, and it needs to continue… ❤
I-want-my-IWTV 