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Was watching movie!Queen of the Damned w/ @roselioncourt yesterday and we caught this little thing… Mojo made it into the movie! Different form than in canon, but hey, it counts.

Got through most of the movie and then had to pause it with 30 min left, but you know, each time I watch it there are things that I begrudgingly admit that I really like, ok?? I do. Reblog/comment on this post with love for movie!Queen of the Damned, it’s what Mojo would want ❤

(A little personal note under the cut)


The new job is now 2 weeks in and I’m really busy, learning the way things get done, meeting new ppl, it’s great! I have mixed feelings about being on what is a real hiatus but I think it’s for the best, for now. 

I’ll be back someday. Definitely in time for when Blood Communion drops! There’s probably going to be a NYC booksigning so keep an eye out for that, let me know if you hear about any booksignings and I’ll reblog here so that hopefully ppl can meet up in real life and go to them ^_______^

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I’m sorry for my absence, big things have happened IRL!

I applied, interviewed, and got a new job!! It’s a huge pay raise, but a huge increase in responsibility. I’ll start it next Monday. 

(I was also sick, and that’s never fun. I’m still getting over it, but it’s just about done, thankfully.)

What this means, too, is that I don’t know if I’ll be able to be as present in the fandom during the day. Probably not 😛 But it’s a big move up, and it means that I have to have a clearer separation between fandom and work time, and I hope I can figure out that balance.

ANYWAY so I’m sorry that I dropped a number of conversations here and stopped answering asks for the past few weeks bc I was wrapping up my projects at my old job, and then this week I’m mostly offline visiting with family to celebrate the new job, so I’ll still be mostly offline.

I miss you all, I’m thinking of you, and I will be back in some regular way as soon as I can. I apologize again for dropping conversations, please know that it’s not personal at all, it’s that real life took over, and I had to go back on a soft hiatus here in order to keep up with the real life stuff. I’m still lurking but I probably won’t respond to chat/asks until things are more stabilized ❤

@moral-cipher replied to your photoset “I was tagged for VC fandom selfies (thanks @xlilvamp and…”

im probably going nuts from doing finals for too long lmao, but you look weirdly like a female tom cruise to me in that second picture??? it’s probably the expression. these are all so cute tho!! i love 4 and 5.

Thank u! so that is the highest compliment for me, you wouldn’t think I’d (a *chick*) WANT to look like him (a *dude*), but I doooo… at least 80′s-90′s Tom…

^The artist who drew that had to have airbrushed out some under-eye wrinkles bc they OCCUR…. I even get fake Ray-Ban style shades to match ;] I think we tend to be attracted to ppl we see some similarity with ourselves… I know someone who adores Jeremy Renner and I swear she could be related to him… 

Does anyone else out here think they might resemble their faves in some way? I can’t be alone in this…

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I was tagged for VC fandom selfies (thanks @xlilvamp and @just-another-vcblog

💖💖💖) and was super flattered! Selfies are haaard bc IDK ~Beauty Standards~ and all, so you get a dump of them and probably no more for a long long time:

(1) overly brightened version of me wearing my hoodie up a la Children of Satan style, 
(2) bathroom selfie bc y’know (btw I made that necklace I’m wearing in top right), 
(3) a TINY smile, bc St. Patrick’s cathedral is in the bg and classing things up,
(4) blue-filtered nonsense in front of another church to look like a frame from an indie movie about whether or not the Manic Pixie Dream girl will accept Loser Dude and the church message is encouraging a yes? IDK.
(5) Felt like posing with this model showing her my hand modeling game is better than hers so there,
(6) Got a pic with Gaspard Ulliel and NO the fact that he’s 5 times bigger than me won’t be a problem for us we are in LOVE.
(7) #45 in fact is a neighbor of mine, not next door thank goodness, but a walkable number of avenue blocks away OH WELL.

Bonus:

Yes that is 100% real plastic diamond I’m wearing.

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Tagging ppl who have tagged me in a get-to-know-me-meme recently (I’m flattered that you tagged me, not sure if I’ll answer)(I’m sorry sometimes I get shy and don’t want to #be social #on a social network) or in the past, or just been in my activity feed recently, but please, consider yourself tagged, I’d love to see more of your faces! 

No pressure if you are tagged, you can post a selfie or give me 5 things that make you happy. If you’re an RP blog, you can do it in character ;}

@sunjawlow, @princelesthottie, @heather-destler, @wicked-felina (well I had to add my fic collaborator!), @violeteyedvampiremolloy, @pour-some-aspartame-on-me, @lady–of–greenwood, @rip1009, @lestat-delight, @annabellioncourt, @romanchronicles, @roselioncourt, @merciful-death, @gairid, @devilsfool, @moral-cipher, @not-a-princess-but-a-queen, @terryfphanatics, @redversaillesrose, @notquitefurioso, @thelionscrimsonclaws@obsessional-ram, @eliestela, @bloodstainedcherub, @claudiaindarkness, @theraphaellus, @covenofthearticulate, @theballadofmrslovett, @monstersinthecosmos (you don’t have to since you’ve done it recently but still), @sanguinivora, @nope-astrology-nope, @morganeskylar, @claudyn, @kfw-dan, @sheepskeleton, @nostradamvs, @chochimaru-sama, @perladivenezia, @theoneandonlylestat, @whiteredrose13​,@julieczyras, @bluecoattallmadge

Look, I know I got several of these, and was very flattered… 

Send this to the 12 nicest people who you know or seem to have a good heart. If you get five back then you must be pretty awesome! 💖 (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*✧💕✨💜✧

But as I’m trying to spread the love and send these out, myself, I feel bad that I can’t send them to everyone. I’m only human. I only have so much free time. And I feel bad bc I think messages like these inevitably make ppl feel left out when they see them flying around and they don’t receive any 😛

I mean sending them to the “nicest” people? or “seem to have a good heart”? What does that mean to ppl who don’t receive any? Who defines “nicest” and “good heart”?

So this is why my old policy for these kinds of messages was to answer privately and not resend them around, and tbh, I should probably have kept to that. I’ve sent out a ton of these now and I feel guilty that I haven’t sent out more. 

Please don’t feel bad if you don’t receive these from me or anyone else, and don’t feel pressured to send them along, they were probably started by someone with friendly intentions in mind. “The road to hell is paved with good intentions,” as they say.

If you want to keep the positivity going, send someone an ask that you write yourself, like, “I love your art!” or “I dig your aesthetic!” then add 💖 (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*✧💕✨💜✧  bc it’s cute.

If given the choice would you want to be a vampire or be mortal?

Yes I would like to vampire plz!

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[^Portrait of moi by the amazingly talented @vaciel, it’s a WIP, I hope they finish it someday]

(Let’s assume I don’t get to choose or stay w/ my maker, and I don’t get to choose to be w/ the VC characters bc then this answer would be impossibly long. I’ll respond to those aspects in separate posts if anyone is interested.)

What would I do with my immortality? SO MANY. Vampiring: I would probably be the slayer of the evildoer, cheesy as it sounds it’s pretty reasonable, following in Lestat’s footsteps, but I’d also want to try wild animals like his mom does… I would write all about it, for sure. Every power and every limitation. The killing part of it would probably be tedious some nights and I would complain about having to go to those seedy places for my victims, and I would probably get into situations that would be somewhat out of my control and get shot in the back and I’d come home and complain about it even louder while my mom extracts the bullet fragments and stitches me back up and says “I told you so,” in so many words. “What, what did you tell me, Mom?” “Be careful what you wish for, obviously.” idk if I would turn my parents but it would be hard not to bc I love them.

We’re assuming I figure out the financial aspect bc currently I do not spend enough time and energy on that… I would need a good cash flow to support my adventures and artistic pursuits. I’d commission artists of all kinds, I’d maybe put together a studio collective, let ppl work at night with me or they could work during the day, I don’t really mind, as long as their work gets done. Probably have multiple projects of different kinds going on at any given time.

I wish I could say I would work on social justice causes, and maybe I would. I wouldn’t want the kind of exposure that might make me a target though, so if I did try to make the world a better place, it would be through my studio’s works, or financial support, or some other private way.

Companions? Idk… I’d like to think I could find someone to spend eternity with but that’s hard, ppl do change. I’d probably be better off as Armand has advised, finding another pre-fabricated vampire, rather than making my own companion.

Hello! I’m hoping you are well. I just want to say I love your blunt/possitive posts about fiction not being reality, personal responsibility, authors’ responsibility if it even applies…just all of it. Really, major kudos to you for being so blunt!

Aw thank you! Yes, I am doing well. Hope you’re doing well, too. I took a decent break from tumblr, and now I’m getting back into the swing of things, there are fanworks to reblog here ❤ and I have my own fic ideas percolating.

(I’m sorry that this response got kind of long, there are things in here I’ve expressed before, and some I may not have, or haven’t mentioned in awhile, and I kind of want to have these things out there for ppl to see where I’m coming from.)

Your message really means a lot, bc I feel like, if I have any responsibility to the fandom as a somewhat popular blog, that I have to stand up for shippers and creators of fanworks. Fanworks are the lifeblood of the fandom, both for the creators and the consumers. Fanworks are made for free (or on commission) by smaller creators who need the encouragement more. Being smaller and more accessible, they’re also easy & more responsive targets for harassment than the published creators 😛

And so when you see it from that perspective, you can understand that when I reblog those fiction =/= reality, pro-shipping, and anti anti posts, it’s coming from a place of good intention. I identify with those easy targets who are criticized for their creation/consumption of published works and fanworks. I was bullied for pretty superficial reasons in my formative years, not an unusual amount/degree of bullying, but it hurt. “Oh, but words can’t hurt you!” <– this is pretty insensitive, and I shouldn’t have to convince anyone that bullying is painful, but there are those who would compare injuries and say that being bullied was less suffering compared to other things (like abuse, PTSD, mental illness, etc.), and therefore invalid. Should we be comparing injuries to validate ownership to fiction? I don’t know, but the bullying was real to me and it hurt. 

And this part of the story is my own attachment to canon (and, later, fandom), before I was even aware of others. Do we sever our attachment to something bc smne else says that their connection to it is more valid? I feel like fandom is limitless, it’s big enough for all of us.

Media/Fiction was an escape from reality for me. It was a place I could find inspiration, could see characters beaten down (by antagonists and/or their own faults) and rise up again and again, in so many variations! Even the same plot points can yield different emotions when told in different ways, and/or involving different characters. Characters refusing to lay down and submit to their obstacles/antagonists was inspiring and helped me rebuild the self-confidence the bullies had crushed. 

So that was my story, as valid as any. I love stories of how ppl got into VC (or any fandoms/media really!), and there are so many. I don’t think that any reason is more valid than any other. 

  • There are those who saw themselves reflected in the fact that there are queer/LGBT+ characters, that they existed and had depth and could love and be loved in return. 
  • Someone told me that they shared a love of history with their father, especially of Rome. The father passed away when the person was young, and so they loved the historical explorations in canon, it seemed to bring them closer to that lost parent. In fact, the act of pointing out historical inaccuracies in canon was enjoyable to this person.
  • There are those who passionately adore Armand, for all his beauty, strength, and sass, the fact that he is a survivor of so much tragedy. “We must be beautiful, powerful, and without regret.”
  • There are those who love the quiet and dignified manner of Louis and how he burns everything down handles situations. 
  • There are those who live for the ~purple prose~ and ~wealth porn~, in the loving descriptions of luxury, the declarations of love and 3 pages of describing how pretty a character is.
  • … etc. etc.

^And fanworks based on the media consumed may relate to the fans’ reasons for getting into that fandom in the first place. I like to think my memes and fanfic show the same refusal to quit that I valued so much in the characters when I read canon. I would think that other writers/artists/etc. would say smtg similar, that their fanworks are their way of engaging with canon, whether it’s to have more of what they enjoy about it, fix and/or explore a character/ship/situation, or take the characters into different situations (like AU) and see how they might fare within changed parameters. Ppl analyze canon and critique it, comparing it to other fiction/non-fiction to lay out their ideas. Ppl might want to dress like the characters and act like them in cosplay! So many ways to engage with canon. And then you have comments on works and works inspired by fanworks and that’s p. much the definition of fandom, to my mind.

HOWEVER.

In my zeal for reblogging posts (and writing my own) about defending shippers and creators/consumers of published media and fanworks, I can be too blunt, and unintentionally injure others. I trust ppl to inform me privately if a post goes over the line in that regard, and I have responded by editing/deleting posts. This blog isn’t sacred, editing/deleting a post is not a sign of weakness, but of curating it to better serve my needs and those who come to it for whatever reason. 

Bc my blog really is at its core about entertainment and encouragement/sharing of fanworks.

It’s hard for me to sit in silence about attacks on shippers and creators/consumers of published media and fanworks

when I feel like if I don’t speak up, silence is tacit agreement when ppl state, “Don’t draw/write/talk about X bc it is harmful to Y” I understand that some ppl do have real triggers and some fictional characters/ships are painful to them, but on the other hand, is it fair to restrict everyone else who wants to explore those characters/ships? 

We have to find ways to coexist, and that may mean everyone taking on some responsibility for their fandom experience and extending respect towards others. Someone asked me to tag a certain ship, and now I do, so that they can block it. I can’t tag every possible thing, but within reason, I will add tags on request.

I don’t believe in censorship when it comes to fiction, for many reasons, there are blogs out there who are much more eloquent than I am in their defense of it. I don’t have their rhetoric. But I feel like I need to defend those who are easy targets for bullying (as I had been).

^^^With all that said, I think it would be best for me to refrain from too much of this type of posting so as not to trample others. Instead, I want to focus on encouraging fanworks, reblogging posts about writing/art and advice about that.  

(If you are looking for more blogs that defend fanfiction, I can recommend more to you privately, or in a separate post.) 

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I’m on a soft hiatus, sorry for not responding to messages. I wanted to post this note bc there are ppl I’ve seen drift away from fandom and I’ve missed them, and wanted to know that they’re at least okay, that nothing bad happened that’s preventing them from being available. Whether they needed a break from me or from fandom in general, just a check in is a good thing to do… 

There is one such person I have in mind talking about this, and we’ve communicated 2x in about a year and a half, they had shut off all their regular social media (Tumblr, twitter, FB) and they are living peacefully offline, as far as I know. This person really needed to be with themselves and heal from the fighting that can happen online, where controversy seems to be encouraged.

So my story is that Real Life has had me away from a desk for a few weeks now, on special assignments, and beyond that, I’ll just say that I needed some time to myself. To reflect on all the recent info from  the past year or so, reflect and recalibrate my attitude on things. Like vampires going to ground, which I haven’t really done except in short breaks over the last several years here.

I’ve been watching a lot of documentaries lately and can recommend some. I’m in a state where I’m absorbing ideas, and I think it will enrich my presence here and my fanfic writing, which I miss very much.

I’m focused on cults, public shaming, controversial ppl with personalities… I’ll make a separate post for that.

ANYWAY I’m sorry for my absence, I’m doing fine, and I hope to return on a more regular basis soon. 

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@eliestela! As per request~ pics of my vampiry mug and a rare partial selfie bc reasons, got it for my birthday last year from the lovely @gairid/@vampchronfic! It’s got 2 sides w/ text: “FAN OF THE FANG” and “Start your day off positive… A Positive” <– har har vampire puns. It’s perfect and I use it p much every day at home bc ppl at the office already think I’m iffy when I occasionally wear my 3-finger ring *eyeroll* bc FAVE MUG.

BTW, if you want one, I found it on eBay, there’s a few listings there.

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Also felt like including: Lestat pillow by @sheepskeleton (@sheepskeleton-art) which I had to buy for reasons (now I sleep w/ him every night har har) ❤ Pillow can be bought in several sizes at sheep’s store,

on her Redbubble and Society6

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(BC apparently I am a salesman for everything, if u like my lil’ teal squishy crature in the BG there, he’s a Squishmallow.)

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Makin’ flowers for a friend’s upcoming bridal shower. Got these LED string lights to add sprakles ✨✨✨ More progress pics to follow, I’ve got 10 to make!

Doing a little physical artwork, even as simple as these, is good for the soul 💓

(Flowers come from a shop on Amazon but I do have to unfold them! I’ll add the link later.)