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Being a violinist
PROS:
•good finger dexterity•tiny fingers
•toned arms (especially if you play fiddle music like damn)
•beautiful instrument
•you’re automatically smart if you play the violin. don’t ask why. it’s apparently a stereotype. just go with it.
•kids love you regardless. play something they recognize and they will love you.
•backpack cases
•you develop good hand-eye coordination and enhanced muscle memory
•covers sound 10000000x better when they’re played on violin. 100% confirmed by scientists.
•you get gigs VERY often when you’re for hire (seriously when did people get so demanding for violinists/fiddlers?)
•jam sessions!!!
•dexterity in fingers = 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼
•music stores are your best friend
•electric violins are BAD ASS.
•violins are so diverse. they can be in jazz, bluegrass, classical, blues, swing, folk, gypsy, burlesque, ragtime, and basically every style of music.
•good vibrato sounds like heaven
•just basically a fun instrument to play. seriously.
CONS:
•calluses. calluses. calluses.•HICKEYS. Hickeys. Yes they are a thing, don’t look at me like that.
•*shoulder rest decides to fly out from instrument while playing*
•backache. arm ache. backache. fingers are sore. neck is sore. everything hurts.
•"Can you play Beethoven?“
•don’t even bother going anywhere with customs. they’ll hold you back because your instrument case looks “suspicious”.
•*bridge decides to snap out from under strings while practicing*
•"Can you play Devil Went Down to Georgia?“
•no matter how hard you try to make that fourth octave C sound pretty, it’s still going to sound like you stuck a fork up a baby bird’s ass.
•"can you teach me how to play it?”
•doesn’t matter if you rosin your bow; slurring to the open E string will make a godawful squeaking noise.
•"I promise I won’t break it”
•watching movies/TV with a violinist makes you cringe because it’s obvious they’re not a real violinist. (seriously, when they’re playing whole note open G they’re playing eighth notes on the E string. what the fuck.)
•"I thought violin and fiddle were two different instruments!“
•that song may sound cool, but don’t bother learning it when it’s in the key of C#.
•up bow. down bow. down bow. up bow. down bow. up bow. down bow. Wait, fuck. *erase*
•"no, I did not slaughter a horse to make my own violin bow.”
•that soreness in your wrist is from your countless attempts to perfect that vibrato. oops.
•tuner? check. shoulder rest? check. mute? check. rosin? check. bows? check. instrument in tune? check. sheet music? check. Advil? yes.
•you’re automatically a stuck-up snob if you play violin. that’s also a stereotype. don’t ask why. I have no idea.
•when your string breaks, it’s the equivalent to having your life flash before your eyes.
•electric violins and their equipment are worth your entire bank account. js.
•"play this song! right now!“
•*bow hits microphone stand*
•"sorry, I couldn’t hear you since my instrument is always in my ear.”
•everything hurts.
OOC; MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY!
//Guys it is @i-want-my-iwtv‘s birthday today, so please go spam the heck out of her with wonderful messages!
This chica is wild, crazy, and maybe the biggest cheerleader we have in the VC fandom. There is no one more kind, considerate, or caring. She has loved each of us and pushed each of us over time to be better writers and kinder people.
Also, she is a tiny smol cinnamon roll and we’ve hung out and had burgers together and it was silly and good. So please go love on her.
MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY, DARLING! We love you!
THANK U BB! It’s all true! Guilty as charged! The feels, they are mutual *hugs*
If I may, @devilsfool is one heck of a friend, in addition to being one of my fave VC writers.
Many of my VC headcanons have been formed in conversation with her or just accepted from her fanfic/RP, so if you like my headcanons/opinions on things, check out her muses: @a-misunderstanding-my-love (Nicolas), @viaticumforthemarquise (Gabrielle), and @devilsfool (Lestat).
I just got a notif for the casting call for Nicolas and I screamed lol. Do you have any favs/people that come to mind?
Anon’s right, Nicolas casting topic went out yesterday:
I had answered a Nicolas casting question a year ago and now I felt like doing it fresh, see if my answers change… I looked through some of the suggestions on the OVCFB page but I couldn’t make it through ALL of the comments and I really liked this comment, let’s choose an unknown actor!:
Anyway. Keep in mind beauty is in the eye of the beholder and so I saw quite a wide variety on the OVCFB page due to that. My own opinions reflect my own idea of beauty so yours may vary.
BUT FIRST, a brand-new misspelling of his name by a POTP bc reasons:
Nocholos…… Buenos Nocholos….. *eyeroll*
So in no special order (except I think Ezra Miller is my fave rn)
^Ezra Miller: Looks great in period costume, has perfect hair, has so much sass. I saw him in We Need to Talk About Kevin, I just think he is captivating, and cruel, and humorous, all the ingredients for a Nicolas de Lenfent ❤
^Ben Barnes is not currently my FAVE appearance-wise, I feel like he’s too… soft?…. but his acting boosts him up. He seems to be the front running POTP fave so I am betting AR will follow up with him.
^Benedict Samuel: I’ve only seen him recently in The Walking Dead, and you have to see him in that, bc he’s as sweet and tender and intense and depressive as Nicolas needs to be. Physically, these full lips and dark brooding eyes, the wide smile that’s almost manic and the frown that speaks to a deeper well of misery that no one can hope to touch. Am I praising him too much? PROBABLY BUT I DO WHAT I WANT. [I wax on poetic about him a little more here]
^Reeve Carney seems to be a HUGE POTP favorite. I hate his hair. HATE. THE MIDDLE. PART. AND. SO. FLAT. If they can give him a wig, then we might be in business.
^Alexander Vlahos well bc Versailles. He was mentioned a few times on the OVCFB so we may see some followup with him.
^Louis Garrel has been a Louis RPer’s face claim and he’s a Nicolas face claim currently for @bloodstrung. I see Garrel as more of a Louis, but I’d screentest him as Nicolas.
Hit the jump for more, cut for length.
^Jonas Kesseler is a model so idk if he’s too old now or if he can act, but visually, he is pretty close to my headcanon.
^I used to really love Gaspard Ulliel as Lestat but not so much anymore… also, the POTP have made me consider him for Nicolas and I think it could work! I like that he has the scar, too, and that could be explained in the show in some fun way like it was in Hannibal Rising.
^David Garrett, I feel like he’s too masculine, too mature of feature, but he is amazing on the violin so that could outweigh his physical appearance for me. @darknessmolten used him as a face claim.
^Landon Liboiron was a POTP suggestion, I am kinda digging him for reasons I can’t explain.
^Nicolas RPer @a-misunderstanding-my-love used model Michael Gandolfi, and idk if he still looks like this or if he can act, but I think he has some of the cruelty that you need for a good Nicolas.
In your mind, who do you think are the right person(s) to play Nicki? As an adult
As usual, I gotta say that it’s not JUST about appearance, so I’m open to suggestions, and it would need to be someone who can make the transition between mortal and vampire really well.
THAT SAID: I would be looking for someone close to their 20’s, or looks like it, with luscious dark hair, A+ artist brooding skills, a smile that can melt your heart, and an almost feral edge, this is not your boy-next-door, but someone w/ razor sharp wit ever at the ready to stab you with, but he keeps it back as much as he can. Leashed cruelty.
Major plus if they can play violin, too, bc I know ppl are going to be watching their damn fingering and will criticize them up and down, even if they get training with it, bc violinning is such a huge part of that character.
Some ideas (in no particular order), and there are more in my #Nicolas de Lenfent tag, I’m just picking some favorites here:
So Hugh Dancy is not this age anymore, but we could find someone who resembled him at this time, as a starting-off point.
90’s!Trent Reznor:
Same comment as for Hugh. Must be someone out there who looks like Trent did at this age. Trent could look like an almost-feminine beautiful mess,
And he could look like he was barely tolerating your idiocy:
Nicolas RPer @a-misunderstanding-my-love uses model Michael Gandolfi (and others, I think?):
Nicolas RPer @darknessmolten uses David Garrett (who actually CAN violin!)
90’s!Skeet Ulrich:
Happiest memory?
-sighs-
First of all, fuck you.
Second of all. Well.
It was summer. One of the more sweltering that I remember. We were at least a month into being truly lovers, not just friends, and he’d dragged me out into the hills in search of a stream. We each had a bottle of wine (or two?) and he was carrying bread, cheese, and cherries; I had my violin.
It took almost an hour to find it. Mon dieu, but it was so hot. The sort of hot that is like a curtain before you, like a wet blanket that covers your body. By the time we found the stream, we’d both stripped off our shirts, and I remember worrying my feet would have swollen in my boots.
We stripped off our clothing and immediately took to the water. Now, remember, these are cool mountain streams, even in summer. It was glorious. Bathing, drinking, splashing each other, wrestling. Then making love on the grass, our breath coming hard, our cries building until the little death, and then collapsing beside each other in happy, satisfied exhaustion.
We drank wine for hours and ate, the cherry juice staining our fingers and mouths, our lazy kisses a mixture of sweat and fruit. I remember almost weeping at the perfection of it, turning into his neck and burying my face there because I knew it wouldn’t last, that the sunlight and sweetness and poetry of it would end, as it always did.
Before we left, I remember he grabbed me ‘round the waist and kissed me, then pulled back and looked me in the eye. If you don’t know him, you can’t know how penetrating, how soul-piercing that gaze can be–he loves with perfect trust, and it’s absolutely terrifying.
“I love you. I will always love you.”
The real horror is that I believed him. Utterly.
♨ for something that relaxes my muse
//(answering in third person b/c jetlag)
Nicolas is often soothed by two things: music and the kill. Oddly enough, both are also capable of creating chaos for him, but as he tends to always live in chaos, that which is brought on by the embrace of the kill and the music–both of these have the power to enfold rather than disperse.
The secret is in the rhythm. Both contain motion and movement–the repetition and the secret thudding music inherent in the kill echoes that which he finds within the music and can succeed in pulling him back from the edge on many an occasion.
♛What did our little apartment in Paris smell like to you? I find myself reminiscing on this tonight and cannot fully recall… perhaps you might remind me.
Betrayal and distrust.
Go fuck yourself, Lestat.
♛Ooooh burn. You know, for Louis v. 1.0, you lacked his penchant for literally setting me on fire, but you always knew how to do it figuratively.
It might have smelled like that after I was forcibly kidnapped from it. I was always the one who brought flowers in and swept up. It must have smelled awful without me, your doting maid.
OOC
Guys, I really miss Gabrielle’s voice, but I feel like there isn’t much happening in the RP world, and all my dashes are so dead that getting anyone besides Lestat to talk is a freaking pain.
Anyone want to plot? Ideas? Just want to annoy Gabrielle? Please go for it.
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COME AND PLAY!
-Mun
My temper is extraordinarily foul this day….approach with caution.
Don’t make me regret whatever horrible thing happens to you if you do.
Oh, my lord the harecatcher. So frightening, so intimidating.
Bring it on, you piece of shit.
I pity you….don’t ask me to elaborate. *turns away and goes back to writing, ignoring you and your cry for attention*
Excellent. The feeling is mutual.
Non, I don’t think the feeling is mutual….far from it.
I was always meant for something greater and I was going to obtain it one way or another. You provided the catalyst…descriptions of Paris and beyond, the spark that became a wildfire inside me. I had to go and I would have done so with or without you.
You, who attached yourself to the illiterate, ignorant but hopeful youth that I was. You, who disgraced your father and dashed all his hopes for you. You who clung to the shadow of greatness that was Mozart for mere scraps. You who dissolved your dark thoughts at the bottom of a bottle every night. You who languished in obscurity and petty jealousies.
I dragged you everywhere when I should have let you lay in that elaborate sarcophagus you’d already created for yourself long before we were ever really close, waiting to die….so that you’d earn your adoration after your early demise. “So sad, so beautiful, such a promising life cut short!”
And THAT is why I pity you…second fiddle! You are petty, jealous and malcontent with anything and everything you ever wanted! I was too much for you and when I tried lifting you towards greatness with me, you backhanded me with your “madness” that was an utter lie! You weren’t mad! You were only more fully yourself…..even more the pitiable soul and when I saw this, I knew there was to be no help for you on this Earth that I could provide to satisfy you, toxic creature!
Spare me the poisoned words that would drip from your lips in response. They are so much mist against my coat. The cold breath of an angry ghost against one whose mind is currently the father of Winter, of Death. You cannot hurt me any longer, even when I can spare you a memory.
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